I Need a Break

 

I do not need a vacation

Not another pretty place to stand in

While my mind still runs marathons

Behind my smile

I do not need a distraction

No weekend getaway dressed up

As rest

No long drive with my thoughts

Still buckled in beside me

I need a break

A real one

A break from reality

From the weight I carry

So naturally

Folks forget it is heavy

I need a moment

Where my chest can unclench

Where my breath can remember itself

Where release does not ask for permission

Before it comes

A moment to breathe

To exhale centuries

To let the world spin

Without me holding it steady

I need a break

To not think

Not fix

Not push through

Just to be

Just to rest

Just to find myself

Under all this surviving